December 29, 2009 § 3 Comments
Soooo….I have decided that I am going to start over.
I am just going to completely start over with my life…completely.
Because chasing something that I tell myself is going to make me happy…knowing full well that it won’t — yea, I am just going to let that whole notion go. I am going to stop trying to convince myself of a goal or a purpose for what I do and I am going to stop trying to fit myself into a summary of sorts for other people. I am just going to start over. Not for anyone else but for myself…and maybe my future grandbabies, lol.
I want to be proud of myself and the life I have lived when I am nice, ripe and old. I want to be able to look back, smile and laugh at the things I did, the risks I took and the leaps of faith that I engaged in — why? Simply so that I have no regrets. I have always hated the thought of having lived a life full of regrets…and I am not going to ever stop hating that. Besides, some of the greatest choices I have ever made in my life came from me taking a leap of faith, doing something slightly crazy — and you know what? I have yet to fall. Not that I have not failed….but I have not fallen and not been able to get back up again. Soooo…I am starting over. Hmmm…it feels good to say it…it just feels right.
Rebooting now….. 😉
“…it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit. Start
whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people who have a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”
~Screenplay, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button